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Benming Zhang
Benming Zhang

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Hometown: Williamsburg, VA
Class of 2016

Managing Ambitions

October 1, 2013 by

Ambition is a passion, at once strong and insidious, and is very apt to cheat a man out of his happiness and his true respectability of character.”

- Edward Bates

Ambition. There is universal acknowledgement yet so different and in many forms. It is dynamic and personal. Even so, it is part of the American character – the very notion of the American Dream feeds on the capacity to succeed independently and comfortably.

Like the American Dream, there is a Tribe Dream every student feeds on here. The Tribe Dream could be little more than to graduate with a college diploma, or as wide as to make the most impact on the school. Look around, and ask a student for a list of all that he’s involved in. It could be breathtaking by the sheer volume of involvement in a wide array of interests. Of course, the Tribe Dream cannot exist without the opportunities that this institution offers. While “opportunities” usually shed a positive light, ambition can twist and bend them for the worse.

I caught the bad end of ambition. As all dreams are capable of doing, I became disillusioned with my capabilities. At the start of my freshman year, I knew I could call this campus my home. With that, I went ahead and took full advantage of what this campus offered. What began as an ideal situation became my next realistic nightmare. My first mistake was taking 18 credits. I found the commonsense to bring it down to 17 credits (not really “commonsense” at all) along with rowing, two other clubs and fraternity pledging. By mid-semester, I was worn out and grades slipped. I became overwhelmed with my slipping grades, and saw my social life gradually collapse to stress. My morale gave way all throughout finals week, during which I simply gave up on salvaging my grades.

Best practices: What could have been avoided

What I lacked is at the core of all ambitions: organization. At times, I became overwhelmed with the influx of quizzes, projects, problem sets, midterms – you get the picture. You have to find your own way to organize, but my main point is when organizing, allow free time for yourself. There have been days where I rushed endlessly from class to committee meetings, and this self-imposed, harried lifestyle beat the energy out of me before I got around to homework. In addition, ensure that you articulate attainable goals. Instead of writing “Get 4.0 GPA,” note a specific way of reaching it. This works: “Get a 4.0 GPA by following my new study habits, and prioritizing studying for exams a week before.” This captures the ideal into a workable form.

Disorganization begins by lacking priorities. Without priorities, ambition will invade and multiply invincibly into our core as cancer does. An ideal setting would call for equal attention to and for everything. In this world, especially in the Tribe universe, such things are nearly impossible. Prioritizing means putting more time into important matters, and leaving others that can survive for tomorrow. A simple practice is creating a list with As, Bs and Cs. “A”s garner (and demand) the most attention, with the rest declining in order of priority.

When ambition becomes overwhelming, and everything seems to be crumbling, don’t let up. Recollect yourself and plan for change at your next chance. I took Winter Break to reorganize my study habits and prioritize my attainable goals for the spring semester. I made marked improvements, and so can you should you ever fall into a similar situation.

Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow

September 6, 2013 by

Whenever a friend asks me about my future, I cannot help but reflect both my past and present. My distant and close memories converge a path that leads to my present, or how I got to where I am today.

We are all accumulations of our yesterdays, todays, and tomorrows. That description seems very befitting, almost trivial – but profoundly important to grasp. I have struggled with my past: things I wished I could have done differently. Throughout high school, I tried to be different. Every year, as a matter of fact, was a new year. A new year calls for a new person. Upon arriving at the College of William and Mary, I learned to accept certain aspects of my tomorrows. In addition, I saw that refusal to acknowledge our yesterdays can cause for a confusing present, and stumbling future. By the time I applied to colleges, I was ever more perplexed at what I wanted to be, as my interests were shaky and unpredictable at best. A lesson in yesterdays, todays, and tomorrows cannot be more understated, now, as we college students come face to face with Life in these four years.

Our yesterdays shape us. They are rigid, fixed, and spur powerful interfaces* toward our todays and tomorrows. We look back to our distant, fond memories. Days sweetened by the grace of our memories, even as the light to our overwhelming bad* moments. The tests, and the panic for finals only seem a dim, distant light. They are tools for the wise, when used appropriately. Mistakes made once can be corrected when the situation comes around again for a second round. We cannot deny our yesterdays, nor can we attempt to replace them.

Yesterdays lead to todays, which is our everyday endeavor. Todays are working long and short term goals, almost in the same way working memory is explained in Psychology. Every minute and every hour is filled with activities with a gush of emotions. We jolt and smile when we see friends. Our actions become competitive when playing sports, and we set a stone face while focusing in class. Even more importantly, todays are the little pieces to advance our yesterday’s follies. This can be as much as writing a paper that you meant to get to yesterday, or even making amends with friends after a tough confrontation the day before. We deal with triumphs and disasters that will become part of tomorrow; the only difference is whether you choose to resolve this issue today, or to leave it for tomorrow.

There is hardly an absolute fulfilling today, so we have tomorrow to continue our quest. Tomorrow provides ambition – whether it simply amounts to desire to see another day. There is hope – hope that we will accomplish something great. A hope for a prosperous and soon today. There is resiliency to face tomorrow’s challenges. To bridge two worlds together, we work hard today in order to prepare bit by bit for tomorrow’s challenges.

Our yesterdays, todays, and tomorrows are our greatest assets. Yesterdays serve as teachers for today and tomorrow. Todays are ever working, bit by bit, carrying great consequences with little actions. Tomorrows fuel our ambition, and our desire to see another day. Understand how these three words play a role in your life, and I guarantee you will find a fulfilling experience at not only the College, but in life as well.